Introducing Pt 2... Renesmee's POV

For you formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and
wonderfully made.
Psalms 139:13--14

I was confused, I had just given birth to a beautiful baby boy, I was moments away from Jake lying him in my arms, and I was still in an immense amount of pain, almost as if I'd never delivered a child.. I felt like I was still in labor....
I watched Jake's panicked expression as a wave of pain caused me to vomit over the side of the bed. I worried that I wasn't going to make it, that we had done something wrong, was I untitled to the joy of a beautiful family, an amazing husband... an adorable son. Was it more than any one human deserved? More than was permitted in one lifetime. Jake put the baby down in the bed, so he could come back to me, I watched as his eyes went from mine to the monitor, and although I wanted to see what was causing this new understanding I was in too much pain to lift my head... Jake looked as if he was about to speak, when Carlisle and my Mother busted through the door.
Carlisle went straight to the monitor, a look of confusion on his face, he eyed the baby, now in Jake's arms, and the monitor, as the pain subsided just long enough for me to coherently hear a faint thumping radiating from the monitor...
I'd heard it all along, but I thought it was coming from the pain, just a dull roaring in my ears. But now in the quiet of the room, when you could hear a pin drop it was obvious....
Was it possible, I'd had all the necessary tests, all the ultrasounds, there was nothing to indicate a .......second child..
Was there?
Carlisle tried to speak to me, as a second wave of pain shot through my body, I couldn't comprehend anything...
Had it not been for the part of my mind formed like a vampire, my counterpart able to process many things at once, when I heard..."a second womb.... a medical anomaly... breech birth....cesarean"
I felt one last cool wave of relief shoot through the veins in my arms, I seen Jake's face and then I was out...
I woke up to the sound of a thumping monitor, fluttering just slightly quicker than normal... and I thought the pain must have knocked me out, only moments had passed... But I didn't feel any pain, there was a slight stinging near the bottom of my stomach... just faintly though, nothing like before. I could hear a heavy, thudding heart beside me, accompanied by the rhythmic sound of two.....two lighter heartbeats...
I opened my eyes to see Jake's face, I faintly smiled at him as he exhaled, he looked as if he'd been holding his breath the whole time I was out..
He seemed to be holding himself a little awkwardly as my eyes met my son's... my son wrapped in a blue blanket, and just to the right of him lay a sleeping baby in a pink blanket..
I rubbed my eyes trying to fix the image laid before me, but the baby was still there.. I looked up at Jake, he was smiling now, as he stood up placing the baby in the pink blanket on my lap...
"Nessie, meet our daughter..." I could feel the warm tears run down my cheeks as she gently yawned wrapping her tiny hand around my finger.. her temperature matched mine perfectly, as did her bronze hair.
She was perfect, they both were... unique in their own special way, with touches of their father and I, mixed in with their own little quirks...perfect..

Jacob Mason Black & Elizabeth Marie Black

As Always With Love Renesmee Cullen-Black as interpreted by Elizabeth Queen

Introducing...

I felt completely helpless as I watched the thin line rise up and down on the thumping monitor, especially considering everyone had just left to hunt. I sat holding her hand as she reassured me that it was "Okay, these things take hours, everyone would be back soon, and all would go as planned."
I tried to talk her through the pain, make sure she was breathing, ask her if she needed anything. I felt as though I was probably more annoying, than a helpful, steady coach.
But, I had never been this nervous in my whole life, I had watched Nessie being born, and it, at the time.. seemed altogether disastrous, there was no way I could witness Ness going through that same ordeal, not if I could help it. I felt as though my whole existence fell around making her happy, and keeping her safe... loving her with everything I had in me.. But, no matter what I did today she would be in pain, and she seemed to be handling that much better than I was...
I watched with adoration as she breathed through each pain, forming some coherency, I began to time the contractions, they had started at about six minutes apart and now, just an hour later, they were coming less than a minute apart..
Granted, I hadn't read all the baby books she had coyly placed around the house, I knew this was progressing rather quickly...
I could see the panic creeping across her face, so I tried to remain as steady as possible, as I looked at the monitor, she watched me gauging my every expression, I tried to smile reassuringly as I screamed in my mind, hoping for once Edward was listening and would get Carlisle back here as quickly as possible.
Ten more minutes passed, a lifetime in vampire time.... a lifetime when you were in the kind of pain Nessie was in right now..
She began breathing more heavily, as she turned and grabbed my arm.. "Jake.... it's time.... you.. have... to help me... no one else..... is here." I robotically shook my head, why did everything in Nessie's life always have to happen so quickly?
I lifted the blanket off of her and tried to gently rub her stomach as she held my hand, she slowly lifted her leg, as I ran my hand down her thigh... Oh yes, it was time, there was no doubt about that... I wasn't exactly skilled in this area, but I wasn't an idiot either.. It was very clear this baby was waiting for no one... Already like it's Mother, I thought..
I let my eyes scan the room, as I searched for gloves, I seen none but I spotted several small blankets, folded up neatly on the bottom of the bedside table, I reached down grabbing one and gently shaking it out... I had never been so scared in my life, but I took a moment to pray for the strength to help my wife through this, and I felt the peace wash over me...
Meanwhile, the pain had taken over and Nessie was on the verge of losing control, I said her name, trying to keep her eyes locked on mine, "Breath Honey, breath.. your gonna have to take some deep breaths okay, the baby's right here, so just try to calm down, okay?"
"Calm Down, Calm Down, Ha. Okay, Jake I'll start working on that then..." I laughed and by the expression on her face that was the wrong thing to do.
"Okay Honey, do you feel like your ready to push?" I asked holding the blanket in both of my hands..
"Uh, huh.." she breathed nodding her head.
"Okay, Nessie" her eyes met mine, "You can do this, I'm right here for you.."
And with three deep breaths, and three big pushes, I looked down into the head full of dark hair of our child... Ness gently lifted her hand, as I placed it on the baby's head, we both smiled, as the tears streamed down her cheeks. With one last deep breath, one great push, I held in this tiny blanket... my Son...

I gently placed him on his Mother's chest as he let out the most beautiful cry I'd ever heard in my life, we both laughed as he quickly blinked... blinked with the same chocolate brown, almond shaped, beautiful eyes of his mother, his grandmother... taking in the room around him... I leaned down to kiss the Mother of my child, wiping the tears from her cheeks and tucking the loose curl behind her ear, she smiled up at me and she had never looked more beautiful.... And, I picked him up taking him to the baby bed Carlisle had placed in the corner of the room to clean him off a little bit, I kept peeking over my shoulder as Renesmee looked perfectly content, surely everyone would be returning any time now? I bundled up the baby, and turned just as Renesmee leaned up vomiting over the side of the bed holding her stomach, writhing in agony...

-Jake

Human Experiences...

I walked into Carlisle's office, closing the door behind me, not that that would make a difference in this house, no in this house there was no such thing as a private conversation, (I threw that in just for Edward's benefit.) And just like everyone else, Ness had heard a good bit of the conversation that had just taken place outside, and was already shaking her head no.
Gah, she was so stubborn.
She had stood up to stretch her muscles, she really had gotten huge in the last couple of days, I gently smiled at her, as I placed my hands on her stomach, she leaned forward kissing me, as I felt the baby kick under my hands.. She smiled, as I helped her get back into bed, but as soon as she was settled, the same determined look crossed her face, I turned to face the firing squad...

"Listen Ness, I know you have your heart set on a natural childbirth, and I know that Carlisle would agree if he thought it was best, but I think for everyone's safety, we should go with what Carlisle recommends," I said, wincing because I could see with every word, the fire had been lit inside her..
"You, listen Jake, I am sick and tired of everyone making my decisions for me, I'm very well educated, I've read everything there is to read on the subject, and there's no medical reason to go forth with a cesarean. It's just another way for everyone else to be in control, no one thinks I'm strong enough to handle this, I am not a child, and at any moment I'm going to be someone's Mother. I've made this decision for myself, and as long as the baby shows no distress, I will proceed with a natural child birth, just like we wanted," she said crossing her arms, she hadn't taken a breath the whole time, and her face was red.. almost purple, just like Charlie's got when he was angry. The fact that she was my imprint, made it nearly impossible to say or do anything to upset her, so it hurt me to see her upset, and as much as I wanted what was best for her, I could definitely see where she was coming from. I just hated myself for putting everyone in this position. I also knew that even though her family disagreed, they would all be there to support her, and Carlisle would take every necessary precaution....except one, one that neither of us agreed with.. Surely they all had heard the rant she just had, and I imagined everyone, with the exception of her hard-headed Mother, would show no disdain, especially when it came to Ness. I leaned forward kissing her on the forehead,
"Okay, whatever you see best my Nessie. If you're in, I'm In..." I said.
With that Carlisle walked in, with Bella and Edward following behind. He looked at both of our faces, "Well I see you've made your decision then." We each shook our heads, "And, you know my opinion on the matter?" Again we shook our heads, "Okay then, as you are measuring 40 centimeters today, and the baby looks to be in no distress, if you haven't gone into labor by in the morning, we will induce your labor. That way I can monitor you at all times, just to be safe." he anxiously eyed Bella and Edward, Bella was chewing on her lip, as Edward had his arms around her waist. "Everyone will hunt tonight, to be on the safe side, we want to take every necessary precaution.."
With that he leaned down and kissed Nessie on the forehead, Bella and Edward did the same, as they parted ways to go hunt.
I was looking forward to some alone time with Nessie, I knew if anything was bothering her, she would tell me when we were alone...
When I was sure everyone was out of earshot, and mind reading range.. I broke the silence.
"Ness are you sure this is what you want to do? No one will think you aren't brave or strong, if you change your mind, we all love you unconditionally." I said, stroking her hair.
"No, Jake it's nothing like that, I just.. well, I just think that childbirth is such a beautiful amazing experience, and I've missed so many normal human experiences, that this isn't one I want to compromise on.." she smiled, "Besides, I am tougher than people think, and I think this will be the most amazing experience of both of our lives."
I couldn't disagree with that, I had been dreaming of the moment since I found out she was pregnant, I couldn't wait to see our child, coming forth from the woman I love, I knew if it were possible, I would love her all the more, for giving me such an amazing gift, to be a Father.... someone's Dad, we would be parents... I couldn't wait. Excitement set in, clouded by anxiety, as I realized, we had less than a day before we would meet our child, as our eyes met, she could read the doubt washing through me, she gently ran her hand through my hair, leaving her warm palm on my cheek, just as she shrilled in pain......
I watched as the monitor beside the bed spiked with a fervent contraction, it was time.......

-Jake

It's Time...

I looked up at Ness, she had a tube of oxygen running across her cheeks, her cheeks once rosy and bright now looked paler than I'd ever seen them. I ran my eyes down to the new IV that had been placed in her arm, as she followed my gaze she said, "It's a course of steroids, just to be safe," she assured as she witnessed my face fall, "It will strengthen the babies lungs as much as possible before delivery. Don't worry Jake, I've read about this it's common in the most normal of pregnancies, it's no big deal.." she said smiling.
God she was like her Mother, it drove me crazy...yet it was what I loved about her the most..
I lifted up to kiss her forehead and run my fingers through her hair, she looked so breakable...
Days ago I had worried that I wouldn't be prepared to be a Father in the time we had, and now I just wanted this over as soon as possible, with my Nessie unscathed and as perfect as ever..
Carlisle walked in and for the first time I looked up and realized Bella and Edward weren't in the room, that was odd..
"Ah, Jake I see your awake.. Ness, how are you feeling?" he said.
"Great," she said eyeing me nervously as I exhaled loudly, yeah Great, she was just covered in tubes and poked with needles, lying on bedrest due solely to my stupidity, but she was Great...
"Well the baby looks wonderful on the monitor, and you seem to look much better, we'll just have to stay on bed rest until this little tyke makes it's big debut. Can I get you anything?" he asked. Why hadn't I thought to ask her that, I was more nervous than I realized normally I anticipated what she needed before she did, I couldn't think straight...
"Actually, I'm starving I wouldn't mind something to eat.." she said, just as Bella entered with a plate of eggs and toast. She smiled at her Mother as I helped her sit up to eat. Bella never looked at me...
Man, I shouldn't have went to sleep, I felt I was missing something...
Bella kissed her on the forehead, tucking the loose curl behind her ear, and looked up at me motioning me into the hallway. As she walked out I started to follow, "Where are you going?" Ness asked.
"I was just stepping out for a glass of water, I'll be right back I said, "Can I get you anything else while I'm out?" I asked.
"No, I'm fine. Just don't be gone too long, okay?" she said smiling, it amazed me that she didn't hate me at this point..
As I stepped out into the hallway Bella was pacing, and Edward was standing in the corner.
"Hey, what's going on Bells?"
"Hey, what's going on?  What's going on is my daughters in there stubborn as ever with the full intent to give birth naturally, instead of by cesarean because it's what the two of you thought best..." she said looking as if she would lunge for my throat at any moment.
"Whoa now, we may have talked about it a time or two before all this happened, but you know I want what's best for Ne-- Renesmee just as much as you do, no matter what has to happen, as long as she's safe, that's all that matters to me.."
"Well maybe you should go explain that to her then, and I suggest sooner rather than later, since Carlisle wants to deliver today." she said.
"Today...okay..." I felt shock wash over my entire body, today why today, I thought we had more time, I didn't know if I could handle this but, I knew I had to be strong for Nessie. So here I go to talk some sense into the woman who rivals the stubbornness of her Mother, and that was saying something...
Wish Me Luck...
Jacob

Renesmee's Lullaby

As Always With Love Renesmee Cullen-Black as interpreted by Elizabeth Queen

A Simpler Time... Jake's POV

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
Matthew 11:28

My head felt like it was going to explode, I had never been so stressed and so worried about anyone in my whole life, I sat there in a chair pulled up beside Renesmee, holding her hand as she slept, she never woke that day, and Carlisle said it was probably from the medication; like me, her temperature ran a little warmer than the average human, so it was a trial basis as to how many pain meds she needed, I was wary but knew that he was doing his best to take care of her.. and the baby..
Somewhere throughout the night I feel asleep, it was like my mind couldn't handle it anymore, Bella and Edward hadn't left her side and the tension in the room was so thick, you could cut it with a knife.. I slept in the chair, with my head leaning against the bed, never letting go of Renesmee's hand, and at some point began dreaming...dreaming of a simpler time, before Ness knew she was my imprint... before anything got complicated, when we were just friends, best friends...

Every morning I sat in the same spot, in the woods in my wolf form, between two trees, just out of sight of the big house, I would watch as she came out the side door, onto the porch of their home to watch the sunrise...
She always wore her white sweater, pulling it around her as the wind would blow through her hair, sending her scent in my direction.. It was the most amazing smell in the world, a sweet-honey lilac scent, I couldn't even concentrate when it would fill my nose. I watched as the sun peeked out through the ever looming clouds above, casting a faint glow across her skin, setting off the beautiful bronze color of her hair hanging down her back.. She always whispered something, which until later I wouldn't know was her morning prayers, asking God to watch over her family,over me, her friends, and thanking him for another beautiful sunrise... So many mornings I wished to be on the porch with her, my arms wrapped around her as we watched the sun rise, and we said our morning prayers for our family, but she needed time.. time to grow time to mature, although she was probably already more mature than I was at the time, I knew soon she'd be strong enough to handle everything that being the imprint of a werewolf entailed, and as I watched her on the porch, she looked in my direction, and I could hear her whispering as she assured me she was strong enough, she was going to make it through this.. and I felt her hand touch mine, it felt so real, like she was right there, soft as silk.. running just a few degrees warmer than me, and then I felt her hand running through my hair, even more real this time.
I blinked just a few times, and I wasn't in the woods anymore, I was inside in Carlisle's office....
I looked up into Ness' eyes, she was awake although she looked weak.
"Hi," she said smiling, "For once you were talking in your sleep".
I laughed, an odd sound after the day that had transpired, "How long have you been awake, I'm sorry I fell asleep, I didn't me-".
"Shh, it's okay I've only been awake a few minutes, I feel much better though," she said smiling, although I knew her so I could tell she was putting up a front, but I was just glad to hear her speak and see her awake, now I just wanted to see what happened next...

-Jake