Explain...

Suddenly, after moments had passed a lifetime in "vampire" time, I realized no one was moving, no one was trying to do anything, think anything, explain anything.. I looked at Carlisle willing him with my eyes to explain, to give us any insight as to what was happening to my sweet child, but nothing.. he gave us nothing..
What would happen to this sweet innocent child who already had the ability to morph into a "Wolf" I spat the word, this would ruin his life, he could never be normal... normalcy that's all I'd ever wanted for my kids, to live a blissful, average life.. and now this..
I could feel the anger overwhelm me, ripping like a current through my body, I sucked back the hot tears, transforming them into rage, a feral snarl ripping through my lips.. it was a sound I'd never released, I was so angry... angry that this precious product of my love for Jacob, was being subjected to a life of unknowns and what ifs..Angry that my Mother and Father had even made the decision to have me, Angry that I had fell in love with a "Wolf" , and now in the present I was angry that Carlisle, was unmoving, unwavering showing no sign insight into what was happening to Mason, I couldn't control my emotions and for the first time, I felt like a.....a..Vampire..
And I let it take me over, before I could control my self, I lunged straight for Carlisle's throat, it was the last thing I remember, the confusion in his eyes, as I could see his "heart breaking".


As Always With Love Renesmee Cullen-Black as interpreted by Elizabeth Queen

Shocked...

Shocked... it's the only word I could use to describe the emotion rolling through me right now, I looked into the sweet innocent face of my beautiful son... filled with all the hopes and dreams of tomorrow, anticipation for a bright beautiful future..
When all of a sudden out of nowhere I felt my eyes had beseeched me, I blinked trying to expel the image that I could feel permanently settling in my brain, as I held what appeared to be a small puppy...
I knew this day would come, I had seen so much; much more than anyone should ever see in their lives, I had finally lost my mind. I tried to look up at Jacob.. at anyone to see if anyone conveyed the look of shock I could feel on my face, but I couldn't tear my eyes away from the image of the small, warm....  animal in my arms..
No way this was possible, I had heard of many things, but this had to be one of the most amazing things I'd ever seen, as the pup whimpered still clearly upset he swiped at my arm, his claws ripping at the bare skin..
I flinched back as Jake gently grabbed the baby from my arms, snapping me back into reality..
Baby.... Son.... Puppy?   No, not puppy..... Wolf.... it hit me like a sharp, cold breeze, suddenly I realized what had happened, what was happening... what would this mean?
Did anyone know, could they? Had there ever been? I knew the answer... No..
What would happen to my sweet, beautiful baby boy?
I looked at Jake, as he quietly hushed our little man, I could feel the warm tears flowing down my cheeks uncontrollably, I looked at Carlisle, I'd never seen such a confused expression in his eyes before, surely if anyone had an explanation it would be him, after all he was an expert in all things supernatural.. He could help... couldn't he?


As Always With Love Renesmee Cullen-Black as interpreted by Elizabeth Queen